Day 60: Unravelling Me
Do you know when you have a knot in a thread or fine gold or silver chain and it you have to keep worrying away at it until at last and often all of a sudden it loosens up? I have had one on those knots in my consciousness about being me.
Now I understand the rational concept of being me and I admire the exhortation to be me. In fact I champion the cause for everyone to be themselves but today I realised that it this is going to be a life time’s work. What brought me to that realisation was having that sudden loosening of the knot today and slipping from one layer of consciousness to the next. It was the same place but deeper, like slipping down (or should that be up?) the Fibonacci spiral. I can’t tell you, precisely what happened, but I believe it is the chipping away that does it. There are times when that chipping away has a flow, feels productive and satisfying and then there are times that the chipping away is like taking a puny screwdriver to an RSJ seems like an impossible task. I have been having a time of it recently feeling stuck with regards to my purpose, productivity and frankly my ability to create money. In fact I have started to slide backwards – commitments being called in, house repairs, clients ready to be in the world on their own. I have been sweating under the metaphorical collar, tossing and turning at night, questioning, analysis, alternating bouts of optimism with desperate pessimism.
Fortunately I have a tool box I can use to look under the hood of what is going on in my unconscious mind and I have colleagues that will support me to do the same. Along side the drama I have been chipping away intuitively but I could feel the tension of that drama like a dog with a bone, hanging on for dear life. Until this morning. This morning’s chip loosened something, I wasnt sure what, but there was a loose thread something I could go deeper into. I felt that concept of being me, moving from my head to somewhere just below my collarbone, my heart perhaps and as it landed I was flooded with the emotion of pleasure. The pure pleasure of being me. I cannot tell you how expansive that felt. William Whitecloud* talks about emotion as the secret weapon and before William, Neville Goddard wrote a little pamphlet called Feeling Is The Secret – I got a taste of that today and a whole new level of joy from one of my favourite every ditties from Cat Stevens and made famous in the cult movie Harold and Maude.
William Whitecloud is delivering his last 2 day Meet Your Genius training in London on 31 May & 1 June. Tickets are his complimentary gift as he is choosing to hand training over and focus on his writing and film creations. If you are interested please claim your free ticket at Secrets Of Natural Success.
100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect. I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort. I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.
Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business. She is the creator of FindYourMojo iPHone app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me. I support clients all over the world.