Day 96: Lost Tying My Shoelaces
Every day risks being lost; of being sucked up into the vaccum cleaner of obsession, trapped under the tomes of inessential activity or squashed between the cushions of oblivion. On this journey it has been close; a Friday here or a Sunday there wracking my brains to write something meaningful and pertinent about a blurry picture of yet another bush or extrapolate something imaginative about an ill advised close up of one of my nostrils. Fortunately thus far my creative genius has always uncovered a gem, a photograph that resonates with my heart even if it has no meaning for my rational mind. On the scent of an oily rag my writing engine comes to life and delectable swirls of chocolately words come spinning off the production line. Well that is my experience of them, an energy that pours out of me, through me and then glides graceful to a completion in blog sized chunks.
95 days have dodged the bullet as a photo or a clear sliver of memory got the ball rolling. The 96th day, a Thursday, is a blank; a memory lingered on Friday illusive like a recalcitrant balloon flying free on the breeze, taunting me with it’s closeness but ultimately floating further away as I waited for it to come to heel. It seems I only have my email Sent box to give me any hint of my dithering on the day, shards of hamster wheel activity, a snowballing of inattention and awe and wonder go out the window. It is only now as my confession emerges fully formed that I remember the intuitive session first thing in the morning that delivered my action for the day – to be zen, to pour myself fully into each of my activities, one at a time. I remember now being fully with my tying my shoelaces like I probably haven’t been since I was 4 or 5 when I learnt the skill. So present that I worried that maybe I would not be able to consciously remember how to tie them. And now the picture comes. Perhaps not so much a forgetting as a state of being, just being lived. No need to capture, to prove. Looks like my lesson with this project is coming to a close.
100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect. I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort. I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.
Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business. She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me. I support clients all over the world.