Day 77: Lucky BitchWho smudged dat cloud?! Where are it’s artfully accidental edges where angels can dangle their delicate ankles? How come it has been stretched across the sky merging into blue like the ocean on the shore? I wonder how it feels to be a cloud dispersed and scattered in the heavens, are there tenous threads holding together the sequins of it’s being or is every fleck of fluffiness being hurtled into nothingness alone in glorious solitude?
I turned my heart inward this morning thinking about my lonely phone lost somewhere in my meanderings yesterday, my centre dispersing as I stopped believing in me and started the spiral of downward interrogation. Teetering in the space of my anger for not being present combined with wallowing in the mourning of the loss of my contacts and my photographs on the one hand and fatalistic submission to a new contract and handset on the other hand I was irritated, dejected and slumped in inertia. As it happened my 24 month contract is up for upgrade on the 10th of June, today is the 8th, so my timing is pretty perfect and fortunately convenient.
It was so easy to stay at home and not to pursue the possibility that my phone was waiting for me somewhere. That is what I did for most of the day. Eventually I went back to Tesco’s, where I was SURE I had left it. Nothing there. Then on to the fruit and veg stall where I got my apples. Their distress at my loss triggered my distress. Just two more places to check out before the necessary stop at the local police station. It took all my efforts to be present and not project myself into the yawning queue of The Law. It was in the Oxfam Bookshop, where I bought a birthday card but had no recollection of putting down my phone, that I received the best of news. I was elated, delighted and astoundingly reunited. My experience was smoothed by the ease of barring and unbarring the phone with O2 online. All in all I am a lucky bitch today.
100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect. I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort. I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.
Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business. She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me. I support clients all over the world.