Author: annekscott


100 Days Of Awe: Day Seventy Nine – Body Bits

Day 79: Body Bits

IMAG4920The highlight of my day was a late night dash to Tesco’s for a Snickers bar – I managed to resist the Maynards Discovery Patch Body Bits and Animals but the garish brightness of these bouncy point of sale packages managed to lift me enough to grab a photo for the day.

Yesterday was sluggish, today was like treacle.  A warm and muggy day, a working day to put your shoulder against or if was your wont a day to sip coffee on a city sidewalk, sunnies on and face to the welcome warmth but instead I tipped over into the yawning maw of inertia and hopelessness.  Today I had my first interview in 3 years, for a part time job.  I was excited about it.  A short bus ride away, a lovely character building, a small, dynamic, business looking for organisation and project managing for relocations and home renovations.

The short bus ride turned out to jagged stop start of a journey, through narrow residential streets, navigating double parked cars, facing off to burly trucks and  stuck up the bum of a rubbish truck.  Uncharacteristically I had given myself plenty of time so despite this edgy start I was still early but the tension of the trip left me raw.  The interviewer was charmingly pleasant, the office was as lovely and welcoming as the pictures I had seen. There was nothing particularly untoward about our meeting but it felt like time had slowed down in the most unpleasant way as I watched each exchange between us like a slow motion rally, showing up minute imperfections, fraying thoughts, daggy cul-de-sacs of answers and my flat heavy responses.  The soft sheen of sweat broke out on my face, a lazy dribble of it slide down my cleavage and the itch of my raspy linen trousers start to nag urgently.  It could have been the replay of a winning ace but instead it felt like a car crash.   I thought it would be a relief when it was all over but it was painful to feel all smashed up.

I work with the premise that my thoughts and feelings are not a true reflection of reality but I am glued in fascination and awe to the power of this one tiny event put under the microscope. To my ego so much more than a part time job is at stake rather it is a challenge to the status quo and it slams me up against the wall to show me who is boss.  I observe what is going on and I keep on observing as the afternoon slides into evening and evening slides into Tesco’s and a dark night stroll with a Snicker’s bar.  There is nothing to observe any more and the nagging day melts into the now.

100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect.  I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort.  I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.

Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business.  She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me.  I support clients all over the world.

100 Days Of Awe: Day Seventy Eight – Buttercup Sunday

Day 78: Buttercup Sunday

IMAG4906I recognise the slow, sludgy energy of my resistance to completions coming on.  It has been creeping up on me over the past couple of weeks.  The more I ignore it the more the power of it’s grimy grip claws into my heart clogging the portals of awe and wonder.  There are only twenty two days left to do; I have already done seventy seven entries well over the half way hump, I have navigated training immersions, a malfunctioning phone battery, loosing my phone and being offline.  The end is in sight and I am on my knees.  I am blinded to awesomeness, I struggle to hitch my heart to the joy of discovery and serendipty.  Yes there is stuff going on, chores to do and a preoccupation with my first interview in 3 years on Tuesday but the weight of the resistance is disproportionate.  This is the snatching of failure from the jaws of success, the unconscious chaffing of self doubt and unrelenting focus on proving my incapability.

Opening to awe is simple.  I can do it effortlessly.  The minute I surrender the need to know and declutter the now wonder is there; it has a personal flavour, lots of nature and sky, funny combinations of colours and things that tickle my fancy.  Mostly they cause me to be wide-eyed and smiling, sometimes sad and contemplative.  It is an act of will to drag myself out into the muggy day and up to Little Wormwood Scrubs, in between the fluffy edges of the flocking clouds there was warm, warm sun.  The park is alive and smiling, the green carpet dotted with clover, daisies and buttercups; brighter than brightest yellow buttercups; oh so cute but believe it or not toxic to cattle, horses and other livestock.  Who would guess.  I linger to soak up the sinking rays.

100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect.  I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort.  I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.

Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business.  She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me.  I support clients all over the world.

100 Days Of Awe: Day Seventy Seven – Lucky Bitch

Day 77: Lucky BitchIMAG4900Who smudged dat cloud?!  Where are it’s artfully accidental edges where angels can dangle their delicate ankles?  How come it has been stretched across the sky merging into blue like the ocean on the shore?  I wonder how it feels to be a cloud dispersed and scattered in the heavens, are there tenous threads holding together the sequins of it’s being or is every fleck of fluffiness being hurtled into nothingness alone in glorious solitude?

I turned my heart inward this morning thinking about my lonely phone lost somewhere in my meanderings yesterday, my centre dispersing as I stopped believing in me and started the spiral of downward interrogation.  Teetering in the space of my anger for not being present combined with wallowing in the mourning of the loss of my contacts and my photographs on the one hand and fatalistic submission to a new contract and handset on the other hand I was irritated, dejected and slumped in inertia.  As it happened my 24 month contract is up for upgrade on the 10th of June, today is the 8th, so my timing is pretty perfect and fortunately convenient.

It was so easy to stay at home and not to pursue the possibility that my phone was waiting for me somewhere.  That is what I did for most of the day.  Eventually I went back to Tesco’s, where I was SURE I had left it.  Nothing there.  Then on to the fruit and veg stall where I got my apples.  Their distress at my loss triggered my distress.  Just two more places to check out before the necessary stop at the local police station.  It took all my efforts to be present and not project myself into the yawning queue of The Law.  It was in the Oxfam Bookshop, where I bought a birthday card but had no recollection of putting down my phone, that I received the best of news.  I was elated, delighted and astoundingly reunited.  My experience was smoothed by the ease of barring and unbarring the phone with O2 online.  All in all I am a lucky bitch today.

100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect.  I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort.  I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.

Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business.  She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me.  I support clients all over the world.

100 Days Of Awe: Day Seventy Six – Lost

Day 76: LostIMAG4893

A Rose Released

As I walk down Portobello Road I am noticing my heart opening to embrace this scuddy, electic, quirky, tie-dyed world of my neighbourhood.  It dawns on me how much and for what a long time I have been resisting London, desiring and yearning to be elsewhere than here.  It seems I am surrenduring to the Summer bouyancy of it, curious about the fedora with a feather, the decor of L’Epicerie, the possibility of a stall in the Portobello Arcade, sniffing at the La Cave a Fromage and making notes to self of the multitude of wine bars and cafes that have to be tried on.  Like yesterday there seems to be a different dawning, a drive to action, to stepping into life and experiencing it.  It seems like I have been stopped waiting for the green light to go for far too long.  I am not in a hurry but I notice that I am not in the effortless ease of the ebb and flow of Friday afternoon browsers, tourists and lackadasical locals.  Perhaps I am still crunching on my gears; out of sync I am clumsy.  I bump into and graze off crusing human beings and the subtle irritation builds as the opticians are closed before closing time, the dress I love is in every size but mine and there is no sign of mint in Tescos.

By the time I get home I am juice-day hungry.  And then I notice that I haven’t got my phone.  I have a grrrr in my gut now.  Back to Tescos but there is no sign of it.  The market stalls I stopped at are wrapped up and closed for the day.  We ring and ring my number and it just goes to voicemail.  The O2 chat agent bars the phone and reorders my SIM in no time at all. I am lucky it is only 3 weeks to my contract renewal date and I am already eligible for an upgrade but my plan to forego the cost of a new handset may well be scuppered unless, like Mary Ellen’s nose, my phone turns up.  Lost perhaps is really just waiting for me to come back.

Update:  Lost WAS just waiting for me to come back – what joy to release my photos.

100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect.  I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort.  I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.

Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business.  She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me.  I support clients all over the world.

100 Days Of Awe: Day Seventy Five – The Medicine Is Working!

Day 75: The Medicine Is Working!

IMAG4851Iced Pink Sky, Dalgarno Gardens, London W10

The changes are subtle but not insignificant.  I am sleeping better, not so much going to bed earlier but when I sleep oh do I sleep and for long luxurious stretches.  After last week’s training extravaganza I slept for a solid 10 hours.  It was so delicious.  Not that I knew it was delicious at the time but waking up knowing how long and how well I slept was a delicious feeling, sensually delicious in fact.

But here are other signs too.  Today I got the bright idea to join the local Library.  Now I have lived where I live for over 16 years and the library has been here for all of that time and even longer.  It has never crossed my mind to join the library.  Today it seemed so obvious.  Clearly there are a confluence of factors; I love reading, particularly before I go to sleep.   My inclination is to buy the books I want to read; many of them I want to keep but more of them I pass on to Oxfam books or sell on Amazon now that I am actively keeping my personal possessions to a minimum.  Of course I have gone geeky and I love my Kindle books but sitting in front of a screen all day, followed by a little telly, doesnt endear me to read a Kindle book. Financially things are also tenuous and I cannot justify prolifligate spending on books thugh not a month goes buy when I don’t by at least one.

The idea to join the Library hit me like a flash of light – a flash that has been travelling at a very slow speed from a very long way away.  Joining the library was so exciting, even if the Librarian in charge appeared to poking her eyes out to keep boredom at bay, despite the raucous belching and farting from a bunch of study resistant school girls and the heavy somulence of some amphorous other bodies.  I was excited by my choice of plastic membership cards.  I went funky town.  I was excited by the invitation to take out up to 25 items of which 15 could be books! I was tempted by the audio books but Spotify does me for CDs and blinkbox serves my video needs at a comparable price with the addition of Tesco Clubcard points which I convert to airmiles.  In the end I read about the iChing, the Mayan 2012 prophecies – which is a little pointless now unless they were out by a year or three – and The Evening Standard before I got excited all over again about the electronic wizardry used to check the books out. Gone are the days of rubber stamps and handwritten dates though curiously all of the books come with a check out slip.

And if the whole Library idea wasnt enough I found myself dashing out of the flat up to the park to capture photos of an iced pink sky.  Without a coat.  Seriously the wonders will never cease.  It could my recent Creative Warrior training, the HRT trial, my recent haircut,  a combination or all three or none of the above. Whatever it is it is different and I am liking it.

100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect.  I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort.  I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.

Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business.  She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me.  I support clients all over the world.

100 Days Of Awe: Day Seventy Four – Sainsburys Sky

Day 74: Sainsburys Sky
IMAG4829The weather is teasing us.  The calender says June but the Guy in the sky is playing April or is it October?  The firmament is cluttered with clouds, rent-a-cloud are doing unseasonally good business.  Ducking and diving between showers I get to yoga and up to Sainsbury’s, it is mild but my bicycle saddle is soggy.  It is tempting to keep my hood up and my head down but my heart is watching out for awe and wonder.  I marvel at the clotted vista above Sainsburys’ Car Park. At home the guffaw of greenery at my window and the twinkling of the elusive sun tantilise me while steel grey heavens and sudden weeping tears deter me.  Summer should be here but it is playing hide and seek today.

100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect.  I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort.  I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.

Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business.  She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me.  I support clients all over the world.

100 Days Of Awe: Day Seventy Three – Memories Of Rita

Day 73: Memories Of Rita

IMAG4274Tramore, Ireland April 2014

It is the 3rd June.  This day 3 years ago my mother’s only sister died.  She was 81 and up a ladder.  A momentary shout distracted her and she fell in slow motion.  It was a relief that she didn’t linger but it was a shocking way for my Auntie Rita to go.  She had lived a life of wild ups and serious downs, she could and would still flirt outrageously with any receptive young man, she loved her nightly sup of whisky and was a divil for a party.  I remember she took me to the circus when I was about 7.  It was such a treat though I very much resisted being asked to slip in under the tent to save the cost of the ticket.  Her spam in batter, an inspired budget meal, was a novelty of the highest order.

She complained about the heat in Adelaide where she had lived for over 4 decades and when she came to Ireland, well it was much too cold.  She loved a bargain; voraciously collecting coupons and stocking up on special offers.  She gifted practical gadgets and was great to make do and mend.  Her life had run the gamut of the emotional scale but she had survived and was even beginning to thrive as she made peace with losses, mishaps and misdemenours.  She dabbled in dragon boat racing in her 70s and guided by one of her daughters she was experiencing the catharis of acting and writing.  The text message this morning reminded me of hearing my mother’s breaking heart when she called to tell me the news this day 3 years ago.  It am right back to the shock and incomprehension of the sudden disappearance of her body and soul through a gash in the invisible veil.  Then as now a stark relief against the apparent mundanity of the day.

100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect.  I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort.  I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.

Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business.  She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me.  I support clients all over the world.

100 Days Of Awe: Day Seventy Two – The Gentian

Day 72: The Gentian

the-gentian-at-st-georgesThe Gentian courtesy of TripAdvisor Photos

A friend of mine has a birthday this week.  She used to live in London but is now based in the West of Ireland.  We met up quite frequently as she passed through London on business but since February 2012 when I started my peripetetic ambulations that thread of connection has been frayed.  It took a birthday reminder to wake me up to the realisation of the fading.  Now I know that our connection is one that can be revived at the drop of a choice; we are both travellers, would be global citizens.  We could reconvene over Thai in London, a cocktail perhaps down Piccadilly way, in the warm evening heat of the South of France with a glass of wine or course, or hot toddys by the fire in a garrulous Irish pub or on wind blown quayside perched on the shore of Galway Bay.

I thought the very least I could do was to send a card, a real one for a change, but had to drop an email to get a postal address.  She directed me to a new town hinting at a different life.  It struck me how our busy lives so full to us are unbeknownest to others and in that space it is easy for friendships to casually fall by the way side.  We are fortunate to live in an age when email addresses and mobile numbers keep us more connected than our forefathers.  I had the flicker of an impulse to look up the address she gave me; The Genetian, Kinvara.  What a surprise to discover that since we last met she has with her partner gone in to the Cafe business.  They set it up in 3 months in 2012 and she has just finished a 3 month stint immersed in cooking with Darina Allen of Ballymaloe House, Co. Cork.  Not a huge surprise as C. has loved the work she has done in the hospitality business but I had not expected her to take from Executive Coaching to hands on mainstays of bacon and butties as well as the more sophisticated pleasures of warm beef fillet salad, lemon sole, spanakopita and a barrage of sweet toothed afters; marmalade bread and butter pudding, crunchy orange butter scones, lemon meringe lattice.  And that is just what I have picked up from the TripAdvisor reviews and The Genetian Facebook page.  As a lover or food and cafe life I am a little biasied but the joy and pleasure of this project radiates from it now that I have spotted it.  Like it’s namesake flower this cafe looks sure to be a curative for hunger of all sorts.  It looks like myself and C. just might cross paths this Summer in London and I am looking forward to hearing about and celebrating this creation.  The awesomeness of the unexpected.

100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect.  I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort.  I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.

Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business.  She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me.  I support clients all over the world.

100 Days Of Awe: Day Seventy One – Pillar Box Rust

Day 71: Pillar Box RustIMAG4794IMAG4796 IMAG4801A few weeks ago I was down at the Royal Brompton Hospital in South Kensington.  South Kensington is sedate, well kept and not a hair out of place.  One of the things I marvelled at was the bright, shiny, spruceness of the red pillar boxes.  I even contemplated them as a topic for a days of awe post but the photographs al beit shiny and red had a flatness and superficiality that did nothing to inspire my creative juices.  Unlike my local North Kensington post box which I used today.  I noticed it’s chipped and tried smile in contrast to the polished perfection of it’s South Kensington cousins.  I couldn’t quite see the top of the box but my camera could.  What a landscape!  It could be the moon, if the moon were red.  Far more interesting than the inaccessible surface of newly painted surfaces.

100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect.  I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort.  I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.

Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business.  She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me.  I support clients all over the world.

100 Days Of Awe: Day Seventy – In-No-Sense

Day 70: In-No-SenseIMAG4793William Whitecloud is completing his visit to the UK with the delivery of his final Meet Your Genius two day event in London.  This two day workshop is designed to introduce everyone to their highest level of creativity and reveal that each of us have innate talent and genius that can be accessed at will.  It was at a workshop like this 5 years ago that my appetite for creative mastery was whetted and the training I have undertaken since has opened up a whole new world of adventure and artistry.  I may have done a workshop like this before but I have never done THIS workshop, it may look like the same material, we may cover the same premises but when I am present to the unadulterated moment it is never the same.  The ability to surrender the need to know, to step outside the preception of our belief and definitions is a place where we can see the world with the awe and wonder of innocence.  In-No-Sense where even the grubby carpet in the Kensington Close Hotel becomes a cornucopia of fascination.

100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect.  I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort.  I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.

Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business.  She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me.  I support clients all over the world.