Day 23: The Dark Side Of My Heart
Day 3 of Alchemy 4 Success with William Whitecloud at Commonwork organic farm, Bore Place, Edenbridge, Kent and we are exploring the raw material of alchemy; the negredo, the lead, our egos. Plato said that humans sit around in a cave with their backs to the fire mistaking themselves for the shadows on the walls. We are looking at the distinction between this shadow – the projection our belief system on to life so that we can be oriented and know what life is about – and the dark side of our hearts which reflects the aspects of ourselves that MUST NOT exist in the world, the parts of us that threaten our viability. Two aspects of ourselves which limit and sabotage our ability to create if we are not aware of them but which become the lead which we can transform to gold.
We continue to apply intuitive tools to peel away the layers of the onion. My shadow self carrys a burden of guilt and shame coupled with an innate sense of panic as I feel I dont have the resources or capability to deal with life. My dark side is Thor the warrior, an Indian War Chief with a shamanic heart and a lust for life and the truth, who takes no prisoners, who can be present with all that life is, in the mystery and the uncertainty of it, with the rawness of life and death. It is awesome and beautiful but I can see how I avoid to stand in life in that way, claiming my power makes me my own authority. Then I have accept full responsibility for my actions and what I create as well as running the risk not getting out alive. Which of course is the ultimate delusion.
100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect. I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort. I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.
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