Tag: Shadow

100 Days Of Awe: Day Twenty Three – The Dark Side Of My Heart

Day 23: The Dark Side Of My Heart

IMAG3897My Shadow on The Pond, Bore Place

Day 3 of Alchemy 4 Success with William Whitecloud at Commonwork organic farm, Bore Place, Edenbridge, Kent and we are exploring the raw material of alchemy; the negredo, the lead, our egos.  Plato said that humans sit around in a cave with their backs to the fire mistaking themselves for the shadows on the walls.  We are looking at the distinction between this shadow – the projection our belief system on to life so that we can be oriented and know what life is about – and the dark side of our hearts which reflects the aspects of ourselves that MUST NOT exist in the world, the parts of us that threaten our viability.  Two aspects of ourselves which limit and sabotage our ability to create if we are not aware of them but which become the lead which we can transform to gold.

We continue to apply intuitive tools to peel away the layers of the onion. My shadow self carrys a burden of guilt and shame coupled with an innate sense of panic as I feel I dont have the resources or capability to deal with life.  My dark side is Thor the warrior, an Indian War Chief with a shamanic heart and a lust for life and the truth, who takes no prisoners, who can be present with all that life is, in the mystery and the uncertainty of it, with the rawness of life and death. It is awesome and beautiful but I can see how I avoid to stand in life in that way, claiming my power makes me my own authority.  Then I have accept full responsibility for my actions and what I create as well as running the risk not getting out alive.  Which of course is the ultimate delusion.

100 Days of Awe is a playful project I set up to bring my attention to awe in my daily life. I see awe as wonder, a mixture of amazement and respect.  I expect the experience of awe to be about perception shifting awareness and that demands a reframing of some sort.  I am excited to see what will awe me on this journey.

Anne K. Scott is an imagination technologist, her work to teach, facilitate and deliver innovation for individuals and business.  She is the creator of FindYourMojo a FREE iPHone productivity app. If you are interested in what intuitive coaching can do for you please do contact me.  I support clients all over the world.

Ask: Acknowledge, Sense, Know

Matthew 7:7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
I have been more curious in recent times of the wisdom in the Bible, curious to engage with it and to test it out. Ask and it will be given to you is not only a Biblical refrain it is also a tenant of the Law of Attraction. Now I have been doing my fair share of asking in recent times and I have been furiously burnishing up my heart to receive and the red carpet has been rolled out. I know what it is like to receive gifts that I love, expected or unexpected. I am giddy with excitement but like a child in a hurry for Christmas I cant stand the anxiety of waiting. Unlike a child I have taken to cogitating and it struck me today that I am not sure what it means to ASK.

So I looked up the definition and origin of the word. I think we are all familar with the definition of ask as a request, there is an expectancy to it and it is dependant somehow on an external force to complete that request. Of much more interest to me is that ASK originates from the old English word āscian. After some digging around I discover that āscian means ‘without shadow’. I wasnt expecting that. What does it mean to do something without shadow? Metaphorically I recognise my shadow as that part of me that I dont acknowledge, my dark side, my ego that assumes that I am separate from everyone else, that I am not connected to the ALL, I am not part of divine consciousness. So to do something without shadow is to do it from my heart, from that part of myself that is connected to all things through time and space. I find that part of me when I drop beyond my thoughts and my feelings into my intuitive wisdom. So if what we receive is what our hearts are asking for then it is possible that we are receiving all the time but not recognising it because it doesnt match what that shadow part of ourselves is reaching out for.

I have been struggling financially – I know that although I can and do enjoy the material trappings of wealth the truth is I would really love to master money; to wield it to serve my heart and my hearts purpose whatever that may be. When I look at my reality that is exactly what I have been receiving. As a consequence I am drawn to redefining the word ASK. A little acronym to remind me is Acknowledge, Sense, Know. Acknowledge my shadow, Sense what is in my heart, Know that I am receiving it.